Inspired writings

It is such a tender place to be held in love.

When your life has been filled with being pierced by pain over and over again and then within your healing journey you arrive in a space where there is so much love, so much softening, so much tenderness and care for your heart, turns out it is a very vulnerable place to be in.

Suddenly the worries of the mind feel so small and empty, because your soul reminds you of how fleeting this life is.

Suddenly, the tasks you thought you weren't up to, turn out to be already settled and secured for you.

You have already succeeded.

So now what?

How to stay with that tenderness and vulnerability of your soft heart?

How to embrace the ache of understanding that soon enough this all will be over?

How to be in the presence of this fleeting life?

In these moments your soul reminds you that only love will stay.

Only love.

So love while you still can, because turns out we will never be able to finish loving.

There is no other reason for us to be here than to walk gently, ever so tenderly.

We are all such tender creatures.

We all, without exception, stand naked when death arrives.

There is a playful energy in the air with this New Moon in Taurus.

How's your inner child doing? 

You might surprise yourself with an unexpected nudge to just have some fun. Enjoy 

There is also an energy of letting go, not surprisingly, as to start anew we have to release what no longer is.

If you have been moving through another layer of grief lately, this moment brings freshness, emerging excitement even, and an anticipation for what is to come.

Every time I read for one of you, I feel deeply honoured to connect with your soul in this way.

Thank you 

Message me if you want to book your personal reading.

Blessings, beloveds! 

Alëna

Divine discontent.

Goddess Pele is here to reignite your soul fire.

Kali Ma severs everything that is not worthy of your heart.

Lilith is here to transform your rage into sacred inner power.

Stamp your feet.

Let your sacred fire come alive and move through you.

This is the death of the 'good girl' role you have played for centuries to keep yourself safe and palatable for the ones who cannot bear to witness the power that you embody.

Repeat after me:

I am worthy of support.

I am worthy of unconditional love.

I am worthy of respect.

I am worthy of honour.

I am worthy of loving reciprocity.

I am worthy of sacred holding.

I am here to take up space.

I am worthy of trust.

I am worthy of belonging.

I am worthy of thriving, not merely existing.

To everyone who has ever shown me disrespect and didn't appreciate my sacred value, I now say thank you.

I bow to you in gratitude for it finally made me see, respect and deeply value myself.

My soul fire is indistinguishable, you see.

And my rage is sacred.

I am not here to please you.

Nor am I here to make you comfortable with your hiding from the light.

I am here to illuminate all that is.

You are not the one who created me.

And for that your opinion about me is irrelevant.

Oh, this intricate journey of being human.

Let's talk about faith today.

As I came to discover, faith is not something we proclaim when everything is going our way and we flow effortlessly through life.

Faith is what we are practicing when things are not happening in a way that makes us feel comfortable.

Delays of that which we thought will happen in our timing, yet asks us to trust the divine unfolding.

Human souls that leave our life when we thought our connection would keep us together.

Support that comes in forms that we didn't expect and turns out we have to learn how to embrace.

That unsettling, uncomfortable feeling.

The nagging fear that can grow into despair if we let it unattended.

The unstable ground beneath our feet.

That moment in time it feels as if there is nothing on the external to hold on to.

The human tendency is then to hustle.

To move from panic and a feeling of being unsupported.

To convince ourselves that we have to make something happen, otherwise we're doomed.

This is when faith comes in.

Patience, my dear.

Yes, patience.

What truly belongs in our lives, will never be withheld from us.

We are safe, taken care of by life itself and we can trust the unfolding of our journey.

When you travel far from home, from your soul, it takes a while to return.

I have lived multiple lives within this lifetime.

I have played multiple roles to make myself fit into a system that I was never meant to be a part of.

As you can guess, that didn't work.

I was meant to experience it to gain wisdom from it.

To re-member myself along the way.

It was a winding road back home.

Back to my soul roots.

Back to the peaceful place within where there is alignment and silence.

No mind chatter, no more roles to play.

Just my human self embraced by my soul self.

The world of tarot and oracle cards opened up for me more than 12 years ago.

And it has been with me ever since.

However, it took me 10 years to uncover the simple truth: this is what I came here to do.

To divine, to see, to voice the unseen, to enter the invisible worlds, gather the messages and bring them to the surface for the conscious mind to integrate.

For me, tarot is a tool that opens multiple dimensions.

It takes me to places where my conscious mind cannot go with its linear thinking.

It awakens dormant energies, memories and skills within me that I didn't know were available for me.

It is a portal to the infinite possibilities that are always present in the here and now.

It is art.

It is beauty.

It is reverence and awe.

It is curiosity and revelations.

It is Divine communing with me.

It is my way back to joy, clarity, peace and understanding.

It is my way back to unconditional love.

One of the many things I love about doing card readings is that it's a mystical experience.

It is based on the divine feminine strength that has been dismissed, devalued and even ridiculed for centuries.

Exactly for that: holding a power that cannot be corrupted nor deceived.

Every time I see a deep energetic shift take place within the person who receives a reading.

It is not always noticeable to the conscious mind, but it is immediately sensed in the energy field.

And that changes the flow of life force and aligns someone with their soul path.

The divine feminine moves in the unseen.

There is so much power in surrendering to receiving.

Message me if you have any questions and to book your reading.

Blessings, beloveds!

There is a powerful energy of (self-) forgiveness present in this moment.

Relax your heart.

It is safe to let go now.

The more I dive into my own psyche (soul), the more I see what soul lessons I chose for this lifetime.

As a child I was conditioned to wait. 
Wait for my mom to return.
Wait for other kids in class to finish their assignments so we could move on.

Later in life I fell in love.
Deeply.
Madly.
For the first time.
And I waited for that love to conquer all for many, many years.
The love stayed, but in a different form than I thought it would come to be.
I got angry, because I told myself that due to that waiting I didn't get children.
Later, when I started to deeply reconnect with my soul, I realised that this waiting was a blessing.
I didn't get children, because I was never meant to dedicate this life to being a mom.
I'm sure I've been a mother in many, many lives.
This time, my soul chose differently.
And that love was a blessing on my soul path.

Now, I see the waiting pattern repeating in my life circumstances.
And I remind myself of the mysterious workings of the Divine.
Every time I feel frustrated, afraid, doubtful and not enough, I have a choice to surrender.
I have a choice to surrender to the unknown.
I have a choice to trust the blessing that is hidden underneath this waiting.

And at other times, I remind myself of having a choice to act.
A choice to go my own way and not wait for others to catch up or join me.
To follow my soul's lead and trust that divine grace fills empty spaces if that is needed.

I am grateful for both.

Unconditional divine love.
On a soul level, we are all unified light.
We are all one.

Now here on Earth, we can experience the unlimited diversity of being.
We can be a villain in someone's story.
We can be a heroine or hero.
And everything in between and beyond.

In Lemuria, the reality was different than the one we are experiencing on Earth at the moment.
It was a frequency of unconditional love and blissful existence within a co-created field of love.
It is close to the frequency of the dolphins.

And since this is a frequency, it still exists now here on Earth as well.
Just in the unseen realm.
And we can make it visible by living from the heart.
By seeing with the heart.

Lemuria is here for us to embody and to be shared.
We have what it takes to live a joyous, soulful, and love-filled life.
It has always been our birthright.

I personally feel deeply connected to Lemuria.
It feels as my truest home to my soul.
This is where I relax and can be my gentle, loving self.
I have spent many, many significant lifetimes in that frequency of unconditional love and joy.
And now I am here to be that love and joy.
I am here to spread this frequency by being most soulful version of me.
I am here to let us re-member a world we have once forgotten.
I am here to co-create from our souls for the highest good of all.
I am here to uncover the love that is ever present in the here and now.
All of this anchored in embodied discernment and deep honouring of my own human heart.

Blessings to all of you, beloved humans!

Trusting oneself.
Trusting our inner visions and the things we just know without knowing how we know.
Relying on our soul's guidance instead of external validation, permission, approval, and the stories we tell ourselves about what we perceive with our physical eyes.

Going deeper into discovering the hidden visions within us that stem from our past lives and the wisdom they carry. Wisdom that is usually wrapped in lessons and unprocessed pain.
It is worth unwrapping to get to our inner treasure. That's exactly why it's there. Waiting to be discovered by us and shared for the loving good of all.

Strengthening our inner compass that guides us through life and our decision making.
Inner compass that is anchored in our soul's light and infused with its eternal wisdom carried through many, many lifetimes.

What kind of life are you longing to live?

What lights you up from the inside and makes you sing and dance?

What do you believe to be possible for you in this life?

What are you deserving according to your own judgment?

How much joy are you allowing yourself to experience?

How much love are you allowing yourself to receive?

How much love are you allowing yourself to share?

What do you believe to be true about this world, yourself, and others?

What kind of life are you joyous to be living?

Chakra card from "The Triple Goddess Tarot" by Isha Lerner, illustrated by Mara Friedman

When you see a miracle, when a blessing is freely given to you, but you are not accustomed to receiving and you are used to pain and suffering, you will not be able to accept it. It takes an embodied amount of self trust to be able to believe that such a blessing is given to you freely. Because you are worth of the beauty of it.

When you meet that soul, the one you have met before.
Different body, different life, same soul.
If coming upon this earth you chose to remember your previous lives together, you will remember your stories.
You will remember the love.
And you will remember the pain of goodbyes.
You will feel it as if it is happening here and now.
Because in a way it is.
Your soul contains it all.
It can be excruciatingly painful to remember.
The love and the pain.
It makes it even more painful if the other chose not to remember in this lifetime.
Oh, they will feel the pull.
They will feel the strange unsettlingness within them, but they will run.
Because it's unexplainable. Because it's very uncomfortable.
And you will have to grieve.
Grieve all of it.
The love and the goodbyes.
It is your task to not let those tears, that grief, freeze up inside your body and make you unable to move.
It is your task to cry.
To scream that pain out of your soul.
To howl at the moon.
You are grieving lifetimes.
Don't fear the intensity.
You are alchemizing pain into majesty.
You are returning to unconditional love.
You are purifying your soul of the pain it carried into this lifetime, because it couldn't transform it in the past.
The goodbyes were sudden and definite.
There was no time to grieve.
The pain was unbearable so it had to be tucked away until another lifetime where the soul could now grieve on a soul level in this new embodiment which serves as a buffer for that life spent together.
And this is the lifetime you chose to do it.
You are ready to move beyond the pain of previous lifetimes.
So grieve.

And then you will have to move forward.
Because your soul chose to remember not to make you suffer, but to ripen your soul.
That's the whole point.
And with that ripeness you can experience the love you are here to for.
That is the whole point.

"Bala is the daughter of goddess Lalita. She has a strong and clear inner compass and it leads her to express herself fearlessly and authentically.
One day she asks her mother to join the battle against evil. Lalita is concerned, since Bala is still a child and not a warrior. Besides, she would not want to lose her daughter on the battlefield. However, Bala convinces her mother that this is what she is meant to do now and to have trust that she has what it takes to succeed.
And so it happens. Bala wins the battle and saves the day."

The old soul with deep knowing, the divine feminine child with wisdom beyond her years.

Your inner compass shows you the way.
The trust is found within oneself.
You know what you came here to do and you know who you came here to be.
Your authentic path is always divinely protected and guided.
It is the safest path to take no matter how little, or none, external validation you are receiving.
Trust in your destiny.
Follow your soul's voice.

Your authenticity will cost you people.
A lot of people.
The ones that cannot understand you.
The ones that cannot see you.
The ones that are afraid of you, because you're doing things your way.

You are the odd one.

And it will also bring you people.
Your people.
People that will feel as a blessing.
Each and every one of them.
People that will come as a gift.
People that will see you.
People that will understand you.
People that will know your soul.

Have faith in your path.
It is all worth it.

Inspired by Alana Fairchild 'Kali Oracle'

Chakra card from "The Triple Goddess Tarot" by Isha Lerner, illustrated by Mara Friedman

"There was a little girlchild who had neither a mother nor a father, and she lived in the dark forest. To survive another day she would buy and sell matches in the nearby village.
One cold winter day she wasn't able to sell any matches and she decided to burn them instead to warm herself. While she sat on the icy ground, she closed her eyes and saw images of a warm, loving home. In the meantime, she was freezing to death.
Eventually she saw the image of her grandmother who took her hand and took her to heaven.
In the morning, the little girl was found still, and gone."

And so, the initiation begins.
This ancient story tells us about the awakening of our life-force energy within us when it is confronted with death.
It is also a cautionary tale to shake us up and let us connect with our life-force to make life-affirming choices.
Leave the places where people don't care. They are not worth your time.
Be with real people who nurture you, who warm you up, who love and value you as you are.
Choose places where you can thrive, where you are celebrated as you.
Realize you are worthy of being nurtured.
Respond to your own needs.
Deeply value the gifts that you were given.
And make choices accordingly.
Life-force within us can make us stay complacent in the most barren circumstances. Because it's main function is to let us survive.
Death threat, however, wakes it up and makes you choose beyond survival.


You are not for everyone.
When someone is not supporting you, it's because they are undernourished themselves.
They cannot give what they do not have.
That is why it is so important to connect with the roots within yourself.
And just as important to choose your environment, your people, wisely and with great discernment.
Who is nurturing and warm?
Who supports your life and your visions and sees and treats you as the great divine gift that you are to the world?
Those are your people.
Be deeply rooted in who you are and what you are here for.

Chakra card from "The Triple Goddess Tarot" by Isha Lerner, illustrated by Mara Friedman

Inspired by Clarissa Pinkola Estés "Women Who Run With The Wolves"

The energy has shifted. It is palpable.
The Divine Feminine has been building an inner solid foundation after the crumbling of the old and in the meantime shedding layers upon layers of conditioning, limiting beliefs and the barriers we had around our hearts.
We have been attuning to our own natural rhythm which can be different to each and one of us.
Now there is a clear sense of alignment. The fear that could bother us yesterday has dissolved. There is a clear sensing of our own worthiness and the life that springs from that. The messages have suddenly landed within our bodies.
We are making the steps from trust and embodiment. And we are greeted by our soul destiny every step of the way.
Much love, beloved human!

For me these words are connected to Mary Magdalene. There is so much tenderness here. The complete surrender to the indestructible softness of our hearts.

I stand naked in front of you and you see me in all that I am.

I want to see you, too. Truly see you. Nothing left to hide, nowhere to go.

The surrendered state of a heart fully broken open. There is no way back to the prison of the past. The past is in the past.

The exquisite beauty of every virtue and challenge ever given to me and their synergy were always meant to lead me back to my soul's truth. To make me re-member. To let me return.

I ask to be stripped bare of every desire that isn't Divine will.

I want whatever you, my Beloved, want for me.

True love is immortal.
And it has already won.