“The ever-unfolding rose.”

~Rebecca Campbell

Looking back now it all makes sense. However, it all started without me realising that something ancient is being awakened within me. But let me start at the beginning. 

 

As far as I can trace back the lives of my female ancestors, feminine wisdom has always been a part of our lineage. My grand grandmother lived in a small Russian village and she was the one who everyone turned to for natural healing and divination practices of all kinds. She lived close to the earth. 

 

My grandmother had another task in this lifetime. She was rebuilding the country during a tumultuous time in Russian history. She was also raising two kids and holding a big household together. And even though she wasn't consciously walking the divine feminine path, the wisdom received from her mom was so naturally weaved into her life and the lives of all those around her. It was a part of who she was. 

 

My mom was a curious little girl who would sit at the feet of her grandmother whenever someone visited her for advice and healing. She learned by observing and being immersed in the practices performed by her granny. Becoming a young adult she would receive acquaintances and friends of all walks of life at a small kitchen table to divine the cards. She would always tell it like it is in a Queen of Swords manner. As far as I know my mom, intuition has always been her guiding light through life. 

I don't know much about my dad, but i do know that he has his roots in Siberia which might lead to shamanism and my deep felt connection with it.

 

So what about me?

Even though the divine feminine has been ever present in my life, it took me a while to become aware of that and to consciously begin embodying this essential part of me.

Although I have observed my mom divining the traditional playing cards, I never cared for it much as a kid. More so, as a young woman I have consciously avoided all the ‘woo-woo stuff’ for a long time. Now I understand that it was a huge, ancient fear within me, for my gifts and what it meant in the past to carry and share those gifts, carried through lifetimes. It was also a remembrance in my bones of the price I paid for developing these gifts in a former lifetime. It cost me my life, my love, my everything. I still carry this grief within me. But now, instead of being bogged down by it, it shows me clearly what I am meant to do in this lifetime. It shows me the value of the wisdom and the gifts I carry in my bones and a soul-knowing that not sharing all of it with the world is not an option. I was born for this. 

 

But let me come back to the chronology of my current life. 

Around twelve years ago I ended a longstanding friendship with a schoolmate, because she consulted the cards without my permission to inquire about my heartbreak at that time after I clearly told her not to. However, the seed was planted. Or rather, I started to re-member, although I wouldn't have these words nor this awareness back then to describe what I was doing. 

Due to the mentioned heartbreak that felt devastating at that time, I somehow stumbled upon a YouTube video of some tarot reader and actually could make sense of what I heard and apply it to my situation. Back in those days I was so disconnected from my own soul wisdom that I only looked for answers outside of me. And it actually worked. Now I understand that the Universe can use anything and anyone to deliver the answers we're seeking, so it's no surprise that I could find clarity within those readings. They helped me to soothe the pain I was experiencing and more videos along the way contributed to healing it with a deeper unseen awareness that is not found within the logical mind. I went down a rabbit hole of discovering tarot YouTube and how much diversity exists within describing and decoding our human experience. 

Doesn't it always happen like this, with an unassuming casualty that leads us to our own inner treasures?

 

Slowly and without being aware of what is happening I moved from being a passive consumer to discovering my own inner wisdom that the cards would reflect back to me. My curiosity led me to oracle cards and eventually the world of tarot. The rest is history. 

 

From that moment on, tarot and oracle cards became my divine friends and allies in all matters of life. From day one they have supported me by being a mirror of the higher knowing within me. One of the many reasons I highly value and love tarot and oracle readings is because that moment of reflection offers a choice point. The cards don't tell you what to do, they illuminate your own inner knowing. The question, however, always remains: will you act on your own wisdom or will you repeat another loop of your lesson? There is no judgment here; since we all need as long as we need to learn something. The cards reveal the inner knowing that cannot be accessed through the linear mind, but can be illuminated by the divine within. The more I surrender to the divine feminine guidance within, the more is being revealed to me and makes sense on my path. 

 

The art within the cards fascinates me up until this day. The images speak louder than words and the messages reveal themselves in such expanded ways that keep life interesting. There is no limit to the depth of the messages coming through the cards yet at the same time they are as simple as you need them to be. There are many layers to our reality. We can learn to perceive them by  being willing to access them without judgement. To perceive them is to be willing to access them.

 

Our world consists of symbols and metaphors. Nothing is what it seems. As the little prince said: what is essential is invisible to the eye. And the cards show that very essence beneath the outer appearance. The tarot helps me to hear my soul's messages by mirroring what lives inside me that I cannot grasp with my physical eyes. And now I also offer this gift to you.

So let's dive deep together and explore that invisible frequency that brings us back to inner peace, clarity of mind and unconditional love that, as I believe, we all are at our core.